Motherhood

Being a mom is so hard, it isn't anything like I ever thought it would be. There are times that I have broken down wondering if I am a good mom, if I am doing the right thing, if I am what is best for her. It is so hard to know. I am SOOO lucky to have my parents. They have helped me so much and have reassured me that Kennedy knows and loves me and that I am doing the best I can do for her. I had no idea that a 12 lbs little person could make me feel so many different emotions at one time. When it comes down to it though all I really feel is LOVE. It is the most powerful feeling that I have ever felt. I have NEVER felt this way or loved someone like this before.

I LOVE:
-how Kennedy knows who I am.
-Kennedy's smile.
-the way she holds me back, when I am holding her.
-the way she smells after her bath.
-how she hates having a dirty diaper on.
-the way she sleeps so close to me, when I let her sleep in my bed.
-how fascinated she is with everything!
-the way she makes me feel.
-how any bad day slowly fades away when I look at her face.
-her cheeks!
-how she is starting to "talk".
-looking at her while she is sleeping && thinking my life is perfect.
-how many lives she has changed.
-when she wraps her fingers around my finger.
-how her hair sticks straight up right now.
-that Lil Wayne puts her to sleep.
-watching her play with her mobile.
-watching her watch the TV.
-how she loves football.

She is the most amazing thing in my world. She makes it all worth it.